confessions: August 2008

I have been waiting for so long,

yet you just kept me w a i t i n g. . .

Tuesday, August 26, 2008 .

for iddie (:

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12:14 AM

Monday, August 25, 2008 .

Matthew says:
lol how're you
.jervis says:
okay la why
Matthew says:
haha never see you much
.jervis says:
i just saw you on sat -.-
Matthew says:
lol
Matthew says:
for a while nia
.jervis says:
who ask you go off with short skirrt
Matthew says:
.

classic matt

want classic nicole fan?
on friday during FUEL meeting we were playing freeze and milk when nicole fan holds on to one of those palm trees at the porch in church and pulls it down. soil all over the floor. jarvis comes with mop to clean it up
nicole: i'm sooooo sorry!
jarvis: you're sorry come and help me clean it up la!

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8:49 PM

Saturday, August 23, 2008 .

haha thanks cheryl

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12:55 AM

Friday, August 22, 2008 .

so i was wrong. it didnt take a while. it took the whole night. oh well... good night world

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6:02 AM

Thursday, August 21, 2008 .

soooooooooooooo. this week has been nuts. studio project and gail go and die. anyway i hope i am right that the fully tonal a4 piece wouldnt take so much time to do, giving me a chance to take a breath. sorry guys if i snapped at you in school or whatever.

anyway, my birthday has come and past. thanks everyone who remembered and wished me, and thanks guys for my string cleaner and new strings. appreciate it alot. those who forgot... well... next year better remember ah!

oh read the news? jade seah wanted off the air for the olimypics highlights show. that will do us all favour. shes not even hot. she looks like a bloody geisha putting on so much bloody makeup. and compared to mark richmond, who has good english, she sounds like some ah lian. so yeah. get her off and spare our eyes and ears

of the entisipated games coming out this 2nd half of the year for me, the first, too human, got shit reviews. was disappointed coz i was really interested with it. here's the list:
spore
fallout 3
fable 2 (WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE)
gears of war 2 (someone lend me gears 1)
guitar hero: world tour (someone lend me cash to get the guitar)
force unleashed
far cry 2

thats all i can remember. will edit if i forgot something

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10:12 PM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008 .

remember me talking about change? like last month?

17th aug 2007

17th aug 2008

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12:32 AM

Sunday, August 17, 2008 .

happy birthday eadelin y dizon (:

today was a great day. celebration in the morning for iddie, practice in youth room, bumming around, and then my surprise. thanks guys (:

now lets hope gail doesnt kill me tmr for my sketches

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10:22 PM

Saturday, August 16, 2008 .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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1:27 PM

Thursday, August 14, 2008 .

1. How does the world see me?
The End of Heartache
Killswitch Engage

2. Will I have a happy life?
Just So You Know
Jesse McCartney

3. What does my friends really think of me?
Pressure
Paramore

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Valentine's Day
Linkin Park

5. How can I make myself happy?
Lying From You
Linkin Park

6. What should I do with my life?
Miracle
Paramore

7. Will I ever have children?
Prodigal
One Repulbic

8. What is some good advice for me?
Cancer
The Real Slim Shady

9. How will I be remembered?
My Last Serenade
Killswitch Engage

10. What is my signature dancing song?
No Time To Cry
Pieces

11.What do I think my currently theme song is?
It's Not Over
Daughtry

12. What does everybody else think my theme song is?
Reflection
As I Lay Dying

13.What song will be played at my funeral?
Our Sick Story
Atreyu

14.What type of men/women do you like?
My Love
Justin Timberlake

15.What is my day going to be like?
Love Like Winter
AFI

16.What would be my wedding song?
With Arms Wide Open
Creed

17.What will be the last words coming from my mouth?
Beat It (LOL)
Fall Out Boy

18.What will be the first thing to say to my unknown love to come?
How To Save A Life
The Fray

19.What will be the song I sing to my lover on the first date?
The After Dinner Payback (I WANT MY 10 BUCKS THAT I PAID FOR YOUR DINNER NOW)
From Autumn to Ashes

20.What will be the song my lover sing to me?
Born For This
Paramore

21.How will my life end?
My Sacrifice
Creed

22.Will I be reborn?
Yellow
Coldplay

23.What will be my heartbroken song?
Face Down
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

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7:01 PM

taken from lexxy's blog

(1) what are you most disappointed about? My performance in school, both work and ultimate

(2) where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? manchester, england

(3) what’s your favourite thing to do? thing? no fave thing. things yeah

(4) do you think money can buy happiness? well... it really depends. dont wanna elaborate

(5) if you have one dream to come true, what will it be? can i do dreamS? to be with that special someone and to be a successful games designer

(6) do you believe you can survive without money? errrr no

(7) have you ever played an instrument? guitar, piano, and yeah, bagpipes

(8) if you mean $1 million, what will you do? save, buy games, new pc, give to charity

(9) what do you think of yourself? God created us in His image. if you dont like yourself you dont like God

(10) list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you? loves his laptop. wannabe guitarist. has a sucky psp

(11) what makes me happy: games. friends. ultimate. soccer. man utd owning

(12) what type of person you hate most? attention seekers

(13) where do you see yourself 10 years down the road? working for ea games? lucas arts? BETHESDA SOFTWORKS COME TO SINGAPORE

(14) if you have a superpower, what will it be? to be able to create and control fire

(15) what do you think is the most important thing in your life? God

(16) if its the end of the world, what will be your last wish? to be with that special someone

(17) if you have a chance to choose, will you want to go back in time? errr... i'll be tempted to i guess

(18) if you could meet one celebrity and be friends with him/her, who would it be? jessica alba. need i say more

(19) are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her? yeah

(20) what’s currently on your playlist: dear God by a7x

ohohoh. tagged: iddie esther kelly rae penny

take me now,
6:48 PM

must improve
must train
must get into team
but how to when my effing leg hurts so bloody much
sigh

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6:46 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008 .

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

i have no idea what the hell the lyrics means, but its damn nice la. especially the strings part. anyone knows any nice acoustic songs in G major? please do say!

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11:41 AM

Saturday, August 9, 2008 .

who thinks im shy? you dont think so? many people go 'yeah right' when i say im shy. but the truth is, im this quiet soft spoken guy when im around people i dont really know

yeah i know, i can be this crazy guy who makes noises for no apparent reason, but i can, and am this person who sits by himself, unsure of how to fit it. and it sucks, it really does. i read about them going out to sentosa and stuff, going for movies together as one big group, and i dont even get an sms. maybe im just insecure, you reading this may think 'oh this guy thinks he must be invited to everything we do'. oh well, i guess i do sound that way

it really does suck la. im not the guy who cracks the funniest jokes. im not the outstanding player who catches everyone's attention. im not one to speak up infront of a group of people if i have a question. thus, people usually dont really notice me

im afraid of going up to people and talking to them. im afraid that theyll find me weird, find me irritating, and ill get ignored even more. insecure, thats me. i wanna be involved, but i am afraid that if i ask if i could go along, people will think that i am proud or whatever. do anyone who is from the group i am talking about even reads this blog? i have no idea. oh well

maybe i care too much about what people think of me, but thats just me. sucks. sorry lack of vocab. anyone from nyp ultimate who reads this blog, please let yourself be known. tag or something. sorry if i sound like some asshole

God bless

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12:49 AM

Monday, August 4, 2008 .

today was spent doing my creative drawing thing. i dont know how good it is, but i really hope that gail will be satisfied at least. anyway, the guys will be going off for LA tmr, and i cant send them off coz of training. oh well sorry guys, have a ball of a time there! and oh angie i want my cap (:

okay now for the serious part. ben sew did a post about relationships, which i had a good laugh reading, and i decided to write a little about the topic myself, taking into consideration the current happenings

anyway, relationships are a weird thing. some people rush into them, some people do not care about them. bgr involving teenagers are common place. i rmb Father Grey Hair With Super Loud Voice saying on saturday during his homily that teenagers want love. they seek love, therefore they get into relationships.

from personal experiences, relationships can be the best and worst of times. its nice knowing that there is someone who will always be there for you, someone who cares and loves you for who you are. someone you can hold, someone you can laugh and cry with. however when times get bad, sometimes they get really bad. there are numerous reasons why relationships break down. it may be a third party, a petty argument, or just the simple fact of not loving him or her anymore.

why do so many teenage relationships end after like 3 months? because they dont know what to do after the so-called 'honeymoon stage' is over. what is this stage you ask? its the stage where you feel that you are in love. everything feels nice, and sweet. but this doesnt last forever. sooner or later, difficulties arise. you find a part of her that you cant accept readily, or his ex wants him back, or whatever. its stupid. they say OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH <3<3<3<3<3 LOVE FOREVER but when complications come, they dont bother to solve it and break up. if you really love the other, and he/she loves you back, you 2 should be doing all you ever can to rescue the relationship, but yeah, its never easy

to those couples who last more than 6 months, my hats off to you. oh well im not sure why im actually writing this post about relationships la. but oh well

P.S.: my mouse is effed up. using the stupid touch pad
Matt , No nonsense, yet full of nonsense says:
see la
Matt , No nonsense, yet full of nonsense says:
bring kit to your house
Matt , No nonsense, yet full of nonsense says:
now your mouse scared alr

lmao
God bless

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10:07 PM

Saturday, August 2, 2008 .

Finally done. The one on the top is the final night piece after using colour balance. And the bottom is the day scene.
Not bad for my first digital paintings
Again many thanks to angie, sam and cheryl

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1:10 AM