confessions

2009-08-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

since lj doesnt wanna let me post anything, here goes. IT FUCKING HURTS

2009-02-14T02:41:00.000+08:00

so yeah. here i am again blogging. its valentines. i dont know how i should be feeling. wonder who reads this, but i promise that there will be a lengthier post

2008-12-14T23:47:00.000+08:00

awesum (:

anyway, will be away at retreat from tmr till weds see you!

2008-12-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

what a crazy few days its been. pretty tired now. thank God theres no school tmr

thursday and friday was tHE Conference 2008. you can read about it and see pics of it on facebook and other blogs, so im not going to talk much about it. but i think everyone is now ACT1V8-ed (: and you girl, im glad you came, even if it was only on friday. i hope that you benefited from it, and i hope that God will continue to work in your life

sat, we had the pre-confi party at braddel view. facils were invited so we came. played soccer, serenaded people, played cards... haha pretty fun. reminds me of my confi party i had at the krygsmans years ago

today was confirmation mass for the 110 confirmands of the church of the holy spirit. usual long mass, but it was cool seeing the youths with whom we have journied with for years and with whom we have formed strong bonds of friendship with being marked with the sign of the cross on their forehead by the archbishop. flowers, hugs and congratulations poured out after the mass. went to byrne's for dinner, then it was back to church to send them off to bicol for the mission trip. pray that God will keep them safe

anyway, i still have my sore eye. irritating as hell. hope it goes away soon

2008-12-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

THE CONFERENCE ON THURSDAY AND FRIDAY. ALL TO GO

its gonna be great. problem is, i have a deadline each on both days, which means i have to hand them up by tmr. so much shit for drawing. gonna be so screwed i tell you. oh well. to make things worse, the acid reflux is back, and today i have a sore eye. while typing this, a headache is coming. sigh... i need to sleep...

and i wanna play WoW again... wrath of the lich king looks so fucking good...

2008-11-30T00:29:00.002+08:00

had to delete the last post die to someone being angry (:

2008-11-29T14:20:00.005+08:00

for those who've not read alex's blog about kelly, read it now. cause this post is linked to it.
i was talking to that blond with asian looks last night, and i would like to share her 3 moments of blondness

blond moment number one
me: ben broughton? i know the family, the uncle. can just go to SJI to talk to brother mike
kelly: wait... brother mike and ben related ah? OH YAH HOR! BROUGHTON!

blond moment number two
kelly: i can join _______ this year after my gym comp
me: this year?
kelly: yeah. this year april
me: this year is still 2008
kelly: OH YAH HOR! I MEAN NEXT YEAR APRIL

blond moment number three
me: do you know where the next world youth day is?
kelly: london right?
me: no. madrid
kelly: still in england
me: errr no. madrid is in spain
kelly: oh shit!

2008-11-23T21:56:00.002+08:00

so. ive not been well these few days. having acid reflux, which means the acid from my stomach has came up my food pipe. hurts like crazy everytime i swallow anything. thus ive not been eating well recently, which lead me to hardly being able to run during winter league training earlier today

enough about me. con 3 camp just ended, on a bad note. last night, some drunk asshole was riding a buggie around the camp compound at 2am last night. 3 girls were sitting along the road and he ran into them. they are now in the hospital. one is in ICU, having internal bleeding in the head, another had a crushed ankle and the last had stiches on her head. please pray for them

thanks sew for the amp

2008-11-23T00:02:00.001+08:00

i miss you. not been out with you for ages. i hope to see you soon

2008-11-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i love her i tell you

2008-11-16T00:20:00.004+08:00

BOO!!! practice for the conference pnw was alright i guess, it sounded nice. and mel was being a tard playing with her cube again. here's some pics to prove it

SEEEEE!!!yup, its a 5by5. and i agree with her. she looks fat in the photos. haha, and then she refused to take a picture with me. hmmph!! mel is so funny and cute and smart haha!

2008-11-07T00:02:00.004+08:00

not blogged in a while. lazy to ><
i promise a post with substance soon
but for now, enjoy this (:

2008-10-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

new skin. much thanks to ben sew. training was shit

bye

2008-10-27T19:32:00.003+08:00

oh and anyone interested in Avenue Q? do tell im trying to get a group of us to go

2008-10-27T19:25:00.002+08:00

as promised, the picutres:http://s432.photobucket.com/albums/qq45/jerviskang/sleepover%20at%20keiths/

2008-10-27T17:46:00.002+08:00

just back from keith's place. had a great stayover. must have been 10+ of us? haha... night full of talking crap, playing table soccer, pissing sandra off, short game of white td, and instant noodles at 230am. was amazing i tell you.

went to bed at like 4, but didnt sleep. squeezed with vic, keith and matt. sew finished his bnet at like 5 and proceeded to squeeze with us being the bitch he is. thing is, timmy went to do the same thing, and pushed poor matt, who was the only one trying to sleep, off the bed. so in the end it was sew(who was pushing me against the wall half the bloody time), vic, keith and myself on keith's queen size bed

the next day, we had macs for breakfast. most of the guys went off after that, and it was only francis, sew and myself left. we spent the whole time until about 4 in keith's room with our laptops, where sew got me hooked onto battle of the bands on facebook

pics will be up soon. as soon as i decide which sharing site to use

shit do i still have to post about ayd?

2008-10-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

1 ) The last person who tagged you is : iddie
2 ) Your relationship with him / her is : best friends
3 ) Your impressions on him / her is : the most amazing girl and the most amazing friend
4 ) The most memorable thing he / she had done for you : a lot a lot
5 ) The most memorable thing he / she said to you : 'you butchered your hair!'
6 ) if he / she becomes your lover you will : hah
7 ) If he / she becomes your lover ,thing he / she has to improve on will be : nothing
8 ) if he / she becomes your enemy , the reason will be : calling her short
9 ) the most desired thing you wanna do for him / her now is : make her happy
10 ) your overall impression on him / her is : best friend ever
11 ) how you think people around you feel about you : either soft and shy or loud and nuts
12 ) the character you love about yourself is : the one where i can be there for friends always
13 ) on the contrary , the character you hate about yourself is: shy around people i dont really know
14 ) the most ideal person you wanna be is : i dno. more of traits i want

15 ) pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you :
1. iddie
2. alex
3. gretch
4. anne
5. rae
6. ben sew
7. isabel
8. matt
9. chris?
10. kelly?

16 ) who is no.6 having a relationship with?
no one

17) is no.9 a male or a female?
male

18 ) if no.7 and no.10 are together , will it be a good thing?
errrr. bel's attached and they're not les

19 ) how about no.8 and 5 ?
no. matt's attached

20 ) what is no.2 studying about?
programming

21 ) when was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
earlier today

22 ) what music band does no.8 like?
metal?

23 ) Does no.1 have any siblings ?
two older sisters

24 ) will you woo no.3 ?
oh yes i do it all the time

25 ) how bout no.7?
SHES ATTACHED LA

27 ) whats the surname of no.5?
chia

28 ) whats the hobby of no.4?
crapping. oh and doing her essay

29 ) do no.5 and 9 get along?
dont think they know each other

30 ) where is no.2 studying at?
SP

31 ) talk something casually about no.1?
manchester united

32 ) have you tried to develop feelings for no.8?
oh i do have feelings for matt

33 ) where does no.9 live at?
somewhere near CTK

34 ) what colour does no.4 like?
pink

35 ) are no.1 and 5 best friends?
nope

36 ) does no.7 like no.2?
ISABEL.IS.ATTACHED

37 ) how do you get to know no.2?
church

38 ) does no.1 have any pets?
no. right?

39 ) is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
later matt kill me ah

okay i need to sleep. shall blog about angie leaving and ayd soon

2008-10-17T00:04:00.000+08:00

got this pic from anne of canteen duty. no idea what the hell i was doing

2008-10-12T22:51:00.003+08:00

the last day was fun

it started out with kit sam and matt waking me up to open my house to them at so they could cook rice. i went back to sleep, only to be waken up by matt and sam shouting over fifa -.- kit then woke me up at 2 which was a life saviour coz i totally forgot about rosary and would have slept through the whole thing.

after rosary, we were briefed about the kitchen and helped to arrange tables and chairs before mass. wasted like 45 mins at my place with sam matt and isabel coz we didnt know what food to take for what and in the end didnt take anything. met the rest at thomson plaza then it was off to byrne's where we helped his mom prepare the shepard's pie to be used for the breakfast too. we then left for adam's place. we intended to stayover at his place, but due to his sister unable to sleep, we had to leave. but omg wii is so fun.

so we sneaked back into byrne's, where sew sam byrne and myself opened our laptops and warcrafted. i tell you, after 90 mins of white td, your mind goes blank. we spent the rest of the night screwing up td and dota games on bnet haha. fun fun.

i think that canteen was a huge success, and im really glad to see us working together to get the food out and serving them dispite so much pressure and people snapping at others. and im really happy now coz i found out that i have no school tmr coz there are only lectures in week 1 and i have no lectures tmr (:

anw, new sem starts. lets hope i learnt from the mistakes i learn in the past.

quote of the day: 'if i say im good, im good. i dont care if my friends, family or God tells me im bad, im good. if Jesus Christ Himself came down from heaven and said to me in my face that im not good, then maybe i'll believe Him. but even then i may still slap Him in the face and say that im good' hahah ben sew ah ben sew

2008-10-10T22:11:00.003+08:00

my mom left for sydney to meet my bro and dad on tuesday night. what have i been doing since then? bumming. i got my laptop back and warcraft from vic, so i've been dota-ing, td-ing ect with sew alex and byrne. not been out for the past 2 days, but i just came back from a more than one hour sitdown and talk crap with sew at starbucks, joined later by matt after what i'm sure was a really really fun night with i wonder whom

okay time for some promotions:

CHURCH OF THE HOLY SPIRIT YOUTH GROUP KOINONIA IS DOING CANTEEN DUTY THIS SUNDAY AFTER 7AM AND 9AM MASS. ALL PROCEEDINGS WILL BE PUT TO GOOD USE (like buying more games in the youth room)
PLEASE DO SUPPORT!

so ya. we'll be having food such as fried rice, shepard's pie, chicken wings, otah ect. so if you need to go for mass on sunday anyway, must as well come for mass at holy spirit and taste our amazing cooking!

2008-10-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

not been able to post
desktop is screwed
laptop sent for formatting. its stupid. they told me last thursday that it'll take 5 working days, which meant yesterday. they only called today. the guy went 'you want it formatted right?' i said yes and he said okay he will call me back. im still waiting. sigh i need a com

2008-09-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

team nyp ultimate plus plus

2008-09-25T21:50:00.002+08:00

you know i have a taste for blues and jazz. besides all the metal and rock, i like stuff by eric clapton and michael buble. their sound is very soothing and relaxing, and its nice! haha looking for any old eric clapton album. if anyone has any please do lend thanks (:

anw, anne, who had a way, wants me to blog about saturday. AYD08 this year is on the 18th of oct and i am going to be a facil for the parish segment. thus we had training at cayc last sat. cabbed down with tarcia, and met byrne sam kit bowen anne nicole siew and stacie there. was fun. i got grouped together with anne, which led me to irritating her for the whole time, which in turn got me a few hits by her shaw(is that how you spell it?)

all the best to all having exams!

2008-09-24T02:22:00.005+08:00

ultimate frisbee is an awesome sport. its so damn fun. anything can happen at any moment. thus please support the spread of ultimate frisbee by joining this group!

WORLD DOMINATION MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

2008-09-23T15:51:00.002+08:00

so i was supposed to blog last night, but forgot. anyway, this is from iddie's blog

1) Are you at home? why?
♥ Yes. Don't want to tire myself out before training
2) Have you tried smoking? why?
♥ No. Why harm yourself?
3) How many friends would you die for?why?
♥ anyone worthy
4) Is you room yellow?why?
♥ No. Because it's white and brown
5) Do you like coke? why?
♥ Yeah. Because it's nice
6) Name one person you like.why?
♥ Clapton is God
7) If you injure yourself while in public what will you do?why?
♥ What can I do? Ask for help if I need to?
8) If you start bleeding? why?
♥ Because the blood vessels burst.
9) How would you react to a stalker? why?
♥ It depends how hot the stalker is
10) Have you sang in public? why?
♥ Yep! Riot! For a Cause.
11) Have you danced in public? why?
♥ Err... DND 06?
12) would you kiss a stranger? why?
♥ Depends on the alcohol level in my blood and how hot the stranger is
13) Have you pierced your ears?why?
♥ No. Afraid my parents will freak
14) Have you pierced anywhere else? why?
♥ No. It's just wrong
15) have you jumped in to a pool clothed? why
?♥ Yes. It's fun
16) Do you like the person who did this before you? why?
♥ She me best friend
17) What are you doing now?why?
♥ This. Because I need something to blog about
18) Do you like your hse why?
♥ Yes. It's small and cosy and bloody convinient
19) what do you want to be why?
♥ A respected Ultimate player. Because Ultimate is so damn bloody fun
20) tag two people. why them?
♥ Anyone. I don't know who reads this

Time for an update of my life. Riot! For a Cause was a fund rasier in church for the Con3 kids going for a misson trip at the end of the year. Iddie and I performed Hallelujah and Knockin on Heaven's Door, was good it think. Someone gimme pics. FreezeBee 08 was an under-21 Ultimate comp, the 1st any of the juniors had participated in, and my team got 3rd in the novice division (:
Then SIM Invitationals. All the juniors got knocked out in the quarters, but it was an amazing learning experience. Grats to the seniors who got 3rd.

Anyway, I have to learn to find things to blog about. Until next time. Ciao

2008-09-05T10:37:00.002+08:00

i love power plays in sports

rooney, roddick... theyre so nice to watch. makes you go WHOOOOOOOOOO when they do something speical. awesome

and yes i cant believe i woke up at 7 to watch the novak-andy game, which is still going on so bye!

2008-09-03T22:57:00.003+08:00

so. yes super overdue post

lets start with last week. presentation was alright i guess, gail defended me alot. very thankful for her. friday was my 1st time back to sji in 7 months, and it was awesome. couldnt recognise gloria cheng, her hair is all straight now. was awesome seeing 209 and 424 again, and the surprise of the day was seeing BRIAN KHOO after 4 years. off to ps after that, met iddie for wall-e, which is a really good show. go watch it.

sat, was pure shiokness. session at botanical gardens was nice. frisbee and soccer after that, but it was the bbq at my place at night which was simply wow. most fun ive had in ages. seeing gretch after ages, bbq chicken wings my fav, frisbee throwing across the pool, dunking and getting dunked. was amazing la. went to baybeats with sirin on sunday, jebediah from aussie land was good, but i cant stand the mutts calling them 'jab-diar'. wth man. caracol were alright, but some parts just sounded like noise.

so we come to this week. monday was my 1st time at soul garden after ages, celebrating matt's birthday. training everyday till today, preparing for saturday's under 21 championships. dno how ready i am, but oh well.

boring post? sorry la. but had to post la

2008-08-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

for iddie (:

2008-08-25T20:49:00.002+08:00

Matthew says:
lol how're you
.jervis says:
okay la why
Matthew says:
haha never see you much
.jervis says:
i just saw you on sat -.-
Matthew says:
lol
Matthew says:
for a while nia
.jervis says:
who ask you go off with short skirrt
Matthew says:
.

classic matt

want classic nicole fan?
on friday during FUEL meeting we were playing freeze and milk when nicole fan holds on to one of those palm trees at the porch in church and pulls it down. soil all over the floor. jarvis comes with mop to clean it up
nicole: i'm sooooo sorry!
jarvis: you're sorry come and help me clean it up la!

2008-08-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

haha thanks cheryl

2008-08-22T06:02:00.001+08:00

so i was wrong. it didnt take a while. it took the whole night. oh well... good night world

2008-08-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

soooooooooooooo. this week has been nuts. studio project and gail go and die. anyway i hope i am right that the fully tonal a4 piece wouldnt take so much time to do, giving me a chance to take a breath. sorry guys if i snapped at you in school or whatever.

anyway, my birthday has come and past. thanks everyone who remembered and wished me, and thanks guys for my string cleaner and new strings. appreciate it alot. those who forgot... well... next year better remember ah!

oh read the news? jade seah wanted off the air for the olimypics highlights show. that will do us all favour. shes not even hot. she looks like a bloody geisha putting on so much bloody makeup. and compared to mark richmond, who has good english, she sounds like some ah lian. so yeah. get her off and spare our eyes and ears

of the entisipated games coming out this 2nd half of the year for me, the first, too human, got shit reviews. was disappointed coz i was really interested with it. here's the list:
spore
fallout 3
fable 2 (WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE)
gears of war 2 (someone lend me gears 1)
guitar hero: world tour (someone lend me cash to get the guitar)
force unleashed
far cry 2

thats all i can remember. will edit if i forgot something

2008-08-19T00:32:00.003+08:00

remember me talking about change? like last month?17th aug 2007

17th aug 2008

2008-08-17T22:22:00.003+08:00

happy birthday eadelin y dizon (:

today was a great day. celebration in the morning for iddie, practice in youth room, bumming around, and then my surprise. thanks guys (:

now lets hope gail doesnt kill me tmr for my sketches

2008-08-16T13:27:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2008-08-14T19:01:00.002+08:00

1. How does the world see me?
The End of Heartache
Killswitch Engage

2. Will I have a happy life?
Just So You Know
Jesse McCartney

3. What does my friends really think of me?
Pressure
Paramore

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Valentine's Day
Linkin Park

5. How can I make myself happy?
Lying From You
Linkin Park

6. What should I do with my life?
Miracle
Paramore

7. Will I ever have children?
Prodigal
One Repulbic

8. What is some good advice for me?
Cancer
The Real Slim Shady

9. How will I be remembered?
My Last Serenade
Killswitch Engage

10. What is my signature dancing song?
No Time To Cry
Pieces

11.What do I think my currently theme song is?
It's Not Over
Daughtry

12. What does everybody else think my theme song is?
Reflection
As I Lay Dying

13.What song will be played at my funeral?
Our Sick Story
Atreyu

14.What type of men/women do you like?
My Love
Justin Timberlake

15.What is my day going to be like?
Love Like Winter
AFI

16.What would be my wedding song?
With Arms Wide Open
Creed

17.What will be the last words coming from my mouth?
Beat It (LOL)
Fall Out Boy

18.What will be the first thing to say to my unknown love to come?
How To Save A Life
The Fray

19.What will be the song I sing to my lover on the first date?
The After Dinner Payback (I WANT MY 10 BUCKS THAT I PAID FOR YOUR DINNER NOW)
From Autumn to Ashes

20.What will be the song my lover sing to me?
Born For This
Paramore

21.How will my life end?
My Sacrifice
Creed

22.Will I be reborn?
Yellow
Coldplay

23.What will be my heartbroken song?
Face Down
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

2008-08-14T18:48:00.003+08:00

taken from lexxy's blog

(1) what are you most disappointed about? My performance in school, both work and ultimate

(2) where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? manchester, england

(3) what’s your favourite thing to do? thing? no fave thing. things yeah

(4) do you think money can buy happiness? well... it really depends. dont wanna elaborate

(5) if you have one dream to come true, what will it be? can i do dreamS? to be with that special someone and to be a successful games designer

(6) do you believe you can survive without money? errrr no

(7) have you ever played an instrument? guitar, piano, and yeah, bagpipes

(8) if you mean $1 million, what will you do? save, buy games, new pc, give to charity

(9) what do you think of yourself? God created us in His image. if you dont like yourself you dont like God

(10) list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you? loves his laptop. wannabe guitarist. has a sucky psp

(11) what makes me happy: games. friends. ultimate. soccer. man utd owning

(12) what type of person you hate most? attention seekers

(13) where do you see yourself 10 years down the road? working for ea games? lucas arts? BETHESDA SOFTWORKS COME TO SINGAPORE

(14) if you have a superpower, what will it be? to be able to create and control fire

(15) what do you think is the most important thing in your life? God

(16) if its the end of the world, what will be your last wish? to be with that special someone

(17) if you have a chance to choose, will you want to go back in time? errr... i'll be tempted to i guess

(18) if you could meet one celebrity and be friends with him/her, who would it be? jessica alba. need i say more

(19) are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her? yeah

(20) what’s currently on your playlist: dear God by a7x

ohohoh. tagged: iddie esther kelly rae penny

2008-08-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

must improve
must train
must get into team
but how to when my effing leg hurts so bloody much
sigh

2008-08-12T11:41:00.004+08:00

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

i have no idea what the hell the lyrics means, but its damn nice la. especially the strings part. anyone knows any nice acoustic songs in G major? please do say!

2008-08-09T00:49:00.002+08:00

who thinks im shy? you dont think so? many people go 'yeah right' when i say im shy. but the truth is, im this quiet soft spoken guy when im around people i dont really know

yeah i know, i can be this crazy guy who makes noises for no apparent reason, but i can, and am this person who sits by himself, unsure of how to fit it. and it sucks, it really does. i read about them going out to sentosa and stuff, going for movies together as one big group, and i dont even get an sms. maybe im just insecure, you reading this may think 'oh this guy thinks he must be invited to everything we do'. oh well, i guess i do sound that way

it really does suck la. im not the guy who cracks the funniest jokes. im not the outstanding player who catches everyone's attention. im not one to speak up infront of a group of people if i have a question. thus, people usually dont really notice me

im afraid of going up to people and talking to them. im afraid that theyll find me weird, find me irritating, and ill get ignored even more. insecure, thats me. i wanna be involved, but i am afraid that if i ask if i could go along, people will think that i am proud or whatever. do anyone who is from the group i am talking about even reads this blog? i have no idea. oh well

maybe i care too much about what people think of me, but thats just me. sucks. sorry lack of vocab. anyone from nyp ultimate who reads this blog, please let yourself be known. tag or something. sorry if i sound like some asshole

God bless

2008-08-04T22:07:00.003+08:00

today was spent doing my creative drawing thing. i dont know how good it is, but i really hope that gail will be satisfied at least. anyway, the guys will be going off for LA tmr, and i cant send them off coz of training. oh well sorry guys, have a ball of a time there! and oh angie i want my cap (:

okay now for the serious part. ben sew did a post about relationships, which i had a good laugh reading, and i decided to write a little about the topic myself, taking into consideration the current happenings

anyway, relationships are a weird thing. some people rush into them, some people do not care about them. bgr involving teenagers are common place. i rmb Father Grey Hair With Super Loud Voice saying on saturday during his homily that teenagers want love. they seek love, therefore they get into relationships.

from personal experiences, relationships can be the best and worst of times. its nice knowing that there is someone who will always be there for you, someone who cares and loves you for who you are. someone you can hold, someone you can laugh and cry with. however when times get bad, sometimes they get really bad. there are numerous reasons why relationships break down. it may be a third party, a petty argument, or just the simple fact of not loving him or her anymore.

why do so many teenage relationships end after like 3 months? because they dont know what to do after the so-called 'honeymoon stage' is over. what is this stage you ask? its the stage where you feel that you are in love. everything feels nice, and sweet. but this doesnt last forever. sooner or later, difficulties arise. you find a part of her that you cant accept readily, or his ex wants him back, or whatever. its stupid. they say OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH <3<3<3<3<3 LOVE FOREVER but when complications come, they dont bother to solve it and break up. if you really love the other, and he/she loves you back, you 2 should be doing all you ever can to rescue the relationship, but yeah, its never easy

to those couples who last more than 6 months, my hats off to you. oh well im not sure why im actually writing this post about relationships la. but oh well

P.S.: my mouse is effed up. using the stupid touch pad
Matt , No nonsense, yet full of nonsense says:
see la
Matt , No nonsense, yet full of nonsense says:
bring kit to your house
Matt , No nonsense, yet full of nonsense says:
now your mouse scared alr

lmao
God bless

2008-08-02T01:10:00.003+08:00

Finally done. The one on the top is the final night piece after using colour balance. And the bottom is the day scene.
Not bad for my first digital paintings
Again many thanks to angie, sam and cheryl

2008-07-31T01:14:00.003+08:00

okay time for a post which has at least a paragraph

ass-week (you know assignment? ass) is more than half way done. colour's going well, refer to post below. codid presentation went alright, but jiunn still has my idea book so i cant update it, and i cant contact him no matter how i try. design fund is later today, and since i'm going to school at 10 to show gail my sketches, i have 4 hours plus class time to do my finals and mount them. bhakta was quite pleased with my variations, or at least he seemed like it. vid aud on friday is bound to be a tiring one as i have to sync the voice recordings and the clips together. problem is that one recording for a pereson can be like 5 seconds long, and the guy only moves his lips for like half a second. go figure

for those who dont know, im a WoW-er having a break, cause there is no way i can raid while schooling. i went to my guild's website earlier, www.racgaming.org for those interested, and realised that ILLIDAN IS DOWN! SOULBOUND CLEAR BLACK TEMPLE! way to go guys. sunwell awaits, and looking forward to september, which is when i can play again (:

level 9, i.e. con 3, of holy spirit this year are going for a mission trip to the phillipines in dec this year, and im glad to say that i'll most likely be going, with byrne and francis. so yeah 3 godbrothers. OHOH anne is coming too! (she reads this blog so i had to put that down you see. thing about anne, is that she had a way haha) anyway, a bunch of us, namely Christ Alive, were supposed to go 2 years ago. however, because of a certain someone who never appeared in holy spirit after that incident, it never materialized. so after hearing al dizon saying that he needs helpers for this trip, i immidiately jumped on the chance to go. why not give some less fortunate children a little christmas cheer and joy? and share the love of God with them?

so yeah. thats whats been going on in my life. boring or not, its up to you to decide.

God bless

2008-07-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

i think its pretty damn nice
what do you think?
many thanks to angie, sam and cheryl

2008-07-29T00:39:00.002+08:00

i can be your hero baby
i can kiss away the pain
i will stand by you forever
you can take my breath away

2008-07-27T22:26:00.001+08:00

assignments due this week:
codid
drawing-sketches
colour
design fund

stuff i'm afraid i'm gonna fail:
codid
drawing
STUDIO PROJECT

sigh

2008-07-27T01:16:00.014+08:00

haha... fun night...
many thanks to keith and byrne as my voice actors
'SHUT THE FUCK UP'
(:

anw, took like 1000000000000000000 pics with anne, keith, byrne, sew and lil timmy with

byrne's magic mac book. here are some along with our 1st camwhoring session with the mac book with francis, lexy, leonard and nicole too, which was like in may?

1st cam whoring session
HAHAH BYRNE'S HAIR

2nd camwhoring session
HAHA THERMAL CAMERA I'M TOO HOT!

anw, we tried to do this music video thing, but somehow the music didnt play when we played it back. oh well. off to more codid

2008-07-24T15:38:00.002+08:00

this sucks. really. feeling the worst i've been for a while. i just don't feel like i'm good enough. what if i fail? where do i go? will my parents let me stay in poly? i don't think so. and if they make me take another course, i have no idea what to take. i mean all i've wanted to do is games design, and if i can't do that, then i'll be lost

bhakta is gonna see my sketches in a few minutes, and i'll prob be screwed and roasted. all i wanted was to finish all 42, and i thought i'll be safe once i've completed them. but looking at all my other classmate's work, i feel so inferior. they can finish all 42 AND have such bloody good quality

design fund is the last module that i thought i would fail, now i'm not so sure. i need to go out tonight...

2008-07-23T22:50:00.004+08:00

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
I have an LJ?

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Read, talk on the phone

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
A nice simple one attended by my closest friends

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
Singapore? I don't know. I don't like to travel, but i adore Melbourne

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Both really, depending on whom I'm with

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone. Well the most important is to love oneself, and it's also the hardest

7. Do you trust easily?
Maybe

8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
No idea. Someone who can throw disc and hit his target 99/100 times?

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yeah

10. When's the last time you had fun?
Today evening during bonding session

11. Is being tagged fun?
It's alright. Gives me something to blog and to do before i tackle on 16 more sketches -.-

12. How do you see yourself?
Quiet, crazy, deep, fun-loving. Weird combination?

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My friends

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
SUNSHINE

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
2 or 3

17. What's better, to give or to receive?
Give

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
None. It's not fair to them

19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
Not gonna happen

20. What are you waiting for right now?
IDEAS FOR THE BLOODY SKETCHES

Tagged:
I have no idea who reads this blog so I'm just gonna throw some names around.
Addy, Yong Kiet, Iddie... Aiya if you wanna do then do la

2008-07-23T02:37:00.002+08:00

it's one thing to not be able to fall asleep after having a cup of coffee and a nap in the afternoon

it's another totally different thing when you had 5 hours of sleep the night before, a full day of school, training and spend hours in bed tossing and turning

i so need sleeping pills

2008-07-22T00:34:00.002+08:00

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

B, i had no warning. i had no idea. i'm sorry. i'm writing this, with that small hope in my heart that you'll see it one day. hell its worth trying and dying to save our friendship. i had no idea how you felt. i'm sorry. i love you, as a friend. an awesome friend. you are now going to hate me, for i know that is how you help yourself get over someone, and there is nothing i can do to stop you. maybe in the future, we will meet. and maybe you'll still hate me. i don't know. but when we do meet, all i'm asking for is to see you smile. do take care

-jervis

2008-07-21T19:52:00.003+08:00

times change, and people do too. relationships and friendships are a strange strange thing. you might see the presidents of 2 neighbouring countries shaking hand in the papers one day, and the next day, they are arguing over what is whose just for the sake of it.

friends. how do you know who are your friends? are they the people whom you hang out with everyday? the people whom you eat, shit, sleep with(its a phrase, not sex)?

how about those people who you think who are really cool? those guys who smoke and have 10000000 piercings all over their body? some will do anything to hang out with these 'brothers'.

no matter who your friends are, they will have a huge impact on your lives. i've met people who are like 50 plus years old, who've been friends since 6 or something. i've heard of people, especially girls, who used to be bestfriends, but now hate each other's guts.

for myself, i am thankful to have such an amazing group of friends. from people like matt who loves his child porn(HAH), to people like suand, i mean sandra, whom everyone adores. they are people whom i can trust, people whom i know i can count on to be there for me when i need it.

however, i've also had friends whom, for one reason or another, have drifted apart with. B, i dont think you are reading this. but if you are, i'm sorry if you feel that i've not been there for you. times spent with you, especially 2 years ago, were one of the best in my life. happy birthday B, and may all your wishes come through

ps: jia you kelly!

2008-07-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

esther sim, being the oh so modest girl she is, wants a post dedicated to her, so here it is.

she helps me make guitar pick keychains. she is going to get confirmed this year, and is currently in koinonia for mip, where she stones till theres no tmr. she thinks shes really nice and pretty, and is a good 'sister' to me. she also wants me to tell any hot guy reading this who is interested to contact me.

anyway, to much more important things. 3 years ago in july, a group of 14 year olds went to pelangi village for their esp, or external service project. there, this poser dude carrying a guitar around met this quiet girl with this irritatingly high voice. their friendship grew and grew and grew, and these 2 became the best of friends. thanks iddie, for everything.

2005-2008

2008-07-20T22:24:00.001+08:00

template is done. much thanks to anne xue. tell me if you want me to link you. but link me first (:

2008-07-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

yes. jervis kang has decided to start a blog again. now blogger please let me change my template and not say theres an error with every template i throw at you